light at the end of the tunnel

supposedly...we;re going to work on our relationship...I don't exactly know how...but that's what were going to do...I guess I'm happy that he wants it to work...I'm pretty sure I'm happy about it...a little bit confused as to HOW it's going to work....so I got the loan...I'm going back to college...I'm excited..not only that but I'll have money to spare and I'll finally be able to get a car....things are getting better...my major is now pre-pharmacy...I think I'll enjoy that very much...reminds me of Alchemy in a way...I think I'll be very good at it...I love learning the compounds and chemicals and whatnot of different types of medications and how they break down and extractions and how they react when combinded with other meds..I don't know...believe it or not, it is a very interesting field...not to mention it is in HIGH demand..and they make a great amount of money...I'd be satisfied with a career as a pharmacist...I mean...I can always do other stuff on the side...

I can do whatever I want to do I guess...I hope things don't fall apart again...I mean...I still have problems...but some of them are starting to clear up...I never thought they would...

all I need to do now...is obtain the happiness that I've been looking for for so long...once I achieve that, nothing will be in my way. everything will be good.

I haven't been optimistic for the longest time....I'm glad that I can realize when my life lacks a little optimism...I'm always so pessimistic about things....I've been searching for the light at the end of the tunnel....but sometimes....sometimes you have to make your own light...