Beautiful

I look so nice today with nowhere to go.....I don't know what I'm supposed to do...I hate just sitting here in my dorm...this is why I started to work..I love to work...it gives me a feeling of fulfillment....like I'm actually doing something productive...I got invited to go out with an old friend and her boyfriend tonight...I'm not sure what I want to do yet....I guess it would be fun...

I'm transferring to a different college next year. I think I'm going to go to Bethany College in West Virginia..it sounds like an amazing college with amazing programs. Akron isn't cutting it for me...I thought it would be fun to live in the city...it's not fun....I guess I didn't realize that what I had was better than what I wanted...the country is so warm and welcoming...filled with aesthetic beauty....the trees...the leaves the horses the birds...the stars at night....here you get bad city water....nasty sewer smells....hobos....and a sky lit up from lights and pollution....

There's no place of solidarity...no peace....no haven...nothing....at least there were places I could go to in Orwell that were peaceful and beautiful..nothing but stone and concrete here.

I'm disappointed in my decisions..