Never dated...

I can't wait to get my car....I can go wherever I want....visit whoever I want...and do whatever....it'll make me so much more happier...

I need to reunite with my friends that I've lost touch with anyways...I gave them all up for my ex...and now we're not together...I gave up a lot for him...which is weird...because I've never given up so much for anyone...and I gave them up so easily for him...and not once did I go behind his back and do something I told him I wouldn't...

I did that to Mario though. I did a lot of things behind his back....But he was NEVER there for me...and Matt was...most of the time..

Anyways...I just need people in my life at this point. People that I can hang out with to keep me preoccupied.

And I've never really ever "dated" anyone before. I've gone to the movies, and dinner, and bowling, and stuff with the people that I've been in a relationship with, but I've never just dated people and explored my options.

I think now is time to do that. I need to stop trying to be so serious. It doesn't work out at this age anyways. My ex was MARRIED and had a KID before we got together! That's insane...

Sure I've thought about it a dozen times. But I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it, and I didn't know whether or not my relationship would last that long. I'm not about to MARRY someone and have a KID with someone that might leave me in the near future. I need to KNOW that the person I'm with that I want to marry and have a kid with is right for me. And that they want those things as much as I do, or even more.

But who knows....I need to DATE first....ugghhh