Death & Love

I miss being as blonde as I was before...haha I don't know where that came from...I saw one of my pics on here....anyways...

So one of my friends passed away recently. Her name was Amanda. She was a really good girl. She was smart, pretty and had two beautiful children. The cutest fucking kids I've ever seen in my life. Anyways she passed away from cancer. I'm not quite sure what kind yet. It's such a bummer how someone that seemed so fine and whom was so young can just pass away right before all of our eyes, and then we're like "damn." I mean....I don't know what else to say....it's crazy.....

I just lost my great aunt a few weeks ago....she was 95 years old.....she passed away after my grandma (her sister)...you know how she died? She died in a nursing home coughing up blood because she had lung cancer....you know the saddest part? She had Alzheimer's and didn't remember that she had it....so she didn't know what was going on at all..... :(

And my grandma died from some lung problem...I don't remember what exactly. I would do anything to see my grandma just one more time. I miss her so much. She was the best grandma that anyone could have had. Everyone loved her....we'd go to Circle K to get the newspaper and a cup of coffee and that would give her coffee for free because she's so cute! The doctors at the doctors office loved her and would just squeeze her! Everyone at Giant Eagle knew her and loved her so much.

anyways....I've been so busy doing school work and going to work lately.....me and Matt are doing better....I hope it stays that way. I love him so much....I'm going to move in with him. We're doing really good with it now. I bought a bed for us, dishes, a bedspread, we have a dog. We're gonna make it work. He loves me, and I love him.

That's what we all need in this world. We all need just one special person that we love so much, and that loves us just as much. Someone you know you can always come home to. Someone that gets mad at you for doing things, because they care so much. Someone you can be with when you feel sick and uncomfortable. I finally found that person. :)

Wish us luck..