Thank You Mario

well I finally got those meds.....got some Cymbalta for depression...Lorazepam for anxiety and Skelaxin for muscle tension.....hmmmmmmmm.....now the question is will they work? honestly...and surprisingly I have noticed a little bit of improvement...but only a little...not enough to keep me sane for long though..

I still haven't talked to my fiance...where is he? who knows...he just left my life...I have a feeling he doesn't plan on coming back...all he wanted from me was money..

whatever...I'm over it...I can't keep sitting here waiting...wishing..hoping...

I can't..

I do love you Mario...wherever you are..and I'm sorry we couldn't work things out..but you abandoned me..