My puppy is gone..

I never thought that I could miss someone as much as I miss Mario...I really miss him a lot...

I gave my dog away yesterday to my englih teacher...she is the most kind hearted person that I've ever met in my life...she opened her heart and home to my roommate and I and our dog Kobe....she barely knows us....it's good to know that there are still decent people left in this world..I'm glad my dog has a new home until we can find a place that allows dogs....I miss him so much though..I love him.

I'm having withdraw from my dog....no wonder I need to be medicated..I can't stand being alone...but yet I am....I'm alone...I hate it..but I'm still here...

I don't even know what I have planned after this semester ends...I might as well just drop out now..I give up....I can't do it...I just can't....for my age I'm technically supposed to be a senior in High School but here I am my second semester in college...I'm not ready for all of this...I have no help..and no one in my life..I have no one in my life..and it gets to me so much sometimes...I should at least have family in my life right? but I don't...they're blinded...they don't see that there is something so seriously wrong with me...I've even told them in a desperate cry for help...but I didn't get any help..

so I'm stil left to fend for myself.... whatever....