So long ago...I'm back

I can't believe my post was so long ago. To think that I used to try and write on this thing everyday. I guess that's what happens when you pawn your laptop to score dope. My life went to an absolutely crazy place. A place I never thought that I'd end up. I went from a somewhat decent person to a hardcore heroin addict. My ex boyfriend ended up in jail with 3 felony charges and put my current best friend and dope partner in the hospital. I od'ed twice and almost died. I ended up in the hospital and my car was missing. I also lost my new job that I had for a year because I got into a car accident and had to have immediate back surgery, that was my second back surgery on Christmas Eve of last year when I was on my way to bail Kyle (my best friend) out of jail. So I was an addict for 10 months.

I have never been through anything as bad as being addicted to opiates/heroin EVER in my life. It was the absolute most worst thing that anyone can go through. My best friend Kyle is 31 years old. I am 20 and he has been a heroin addict for over 10 years and has od'ed multiple times and died time and time again. Not only that but he has yet to ever have a job and robs and steals and scraps and pawns for his daily fix. He introduced me to my first taste of dope and then to my first shot. I fell in love at first injection. Well I ended up being grimy as hell along with him to score money and ended up being a hardcore fiend who got dopesick if I didn't have a fix every few hours. My whole town got hooked on dope at the same time because of the recent change in the makeup of oxycontin and the anti-abuse potential it now has. We had a big dealer who sold amazing quality right in our tiny little town in Ohio. I ended up putting myself in rehab this year a couple of months ago for 6 weeks and got clean. I felt so crazy but I did it. Now I'm in Florida because I had to move away in order to get away from the drugs. I'm starting my life over.....I have so much more to talk about....but this is a start....I need some therapy and this used to help....