SELFISH

I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE....why is it that my birthdays are always the worst day than any other day of the year? because people seem to treat me like shit at that particular time more than any other time....and it really fucking upsets me! I don't make anyone feel like shit on their fucking birthday! It makes me want to get "fucked" up.....drink a bottle or do whatever...and I haven't done that for a long time....I've been really good, and now I'm not sure that I want to do that anymore....I fucking HATE living at my dads house....first of all I have to watch this little fucking fat ass kid eat EVERYTHING in this house...no wonder they fucking spend 500 dollars on groceries...they come back with bag fulls and the little fucking fat ass eats it all that very same night!

You know...I had planned to take a nice trip for my birthday...nothing special at all...just a little trip...and I was hoping since it was my birthday and all I would get money to help out with the expenses....since I have NONE...but no.....did anyone help me? No...of course not...because everyone needs to provide for this fucking high maintnence bitch that lives here...she needs to have every fucking thing off of QVC....and every fucking thing she wants she gets...but I can even get 50 dollars to fucking spend on a little trip? they got out on luxurious vacations and fancy dinners...and work on their fucking camaros....but what do I get??? fucking nothing...they even forget me when they order dinner.... "Oh, I didn't know you were here." I do their fucking laundry...I put up with their shit....and not ONCE can I have something special for myself.....I havent been on any kind of trip since I was like NINE! and now Im nineteen....it's not fair...I don't ask for anything! I've fucking paid for my college tuition myself and my prescriptions....and my clothes...and feminine products....and fucking everything.....but once....just this once I ask for help....or to BORROW money and that I would pay them back on the 14th...but no.....that wont go either...

well FUCK ALL OF YOU fucking ritzy selfish fucking ass holes!